Clothes I am going to buy when I’m hot
Crop top
High waisted jean shorts
Overall dress
Giant high waisted flowery skirt
Printed pants
After a weekend in Tianjin, I have like 500 thoughts about people, who they are and what type of person I am.
Sometimes I wonder if I am really an extrovert. I was so so confident I was until a very specific thing came into play: alcohol and partying. I don’t like to drink to get drunk. I don’t like I drink all day and all night. I don’t like to drink straight liquor(anymore), I don’t like to drink cheap wine.
I’m in an environment where the main pastime of my immediate company is drinking. While playing a drinking game, one round included never have I ever. Johnny said “never have I ever blacked out” and every single person was like omg what that’s like a Tuesday? The idea of drinking and then just stopping at some point was crazy.
So is it crazy? Are the lame ? Are we missing out? That’s what I keep wondering. Usually I love being around people and I get my energy from people but I’m not just going to drink ten beers because everyone else is. Maybe one night I’ll have a few drinks, but then at some point I have to stop. So I feel like I can’t stay connected to these people, because I’m not drinking with them. So I leave early, i head home, i head to bed. But I feel left out?
But also not left out because I don’t like that environment?
I don’t know. Just processing
just trying to figure out how to make soy candles and if i should go to sleep or go to the gym.
